Three months ago was Emily's accident...the sadness is still very real and strong...36 moons...to the other side of my grieving...And a life time of moving forward...
I spent some time in Sedona, AZ learning new tools to continue on my journey of grieving. I learned lots. I spent time with many people of different faiths and paths...we (my sisters and I) started our journey visiting Amitabha Stupa, www.amitabhastupa.org it is said, "by seeing a stupa or hearing about a stupa, remembering it, visualizing it - any kind of connection - will imbue you with a blessing, will connect you to enlightenment." And honestly, I feel a little lighter!
I learned that Emily is with me. There is an after life. I know that if Emily wasn't with me, I wouldn't be able to function. I envision her by my side, in a different dimension, cheering me onward...I feel her energy, intertwining and vibrating with mine.
I learned that Emily was a teacher, she taught me so much in her short life...I learned unconditional love...I personally don't believe until you're a parent you learn that love...and my Hanna is still here...
I was sitting on a rock, looking at Cathedral Rock and just thinking...I remembered all the pictures that Emily took and my mind started rushing with pictures and memories and at that moment I realized that Emily lived in the present, she CAPTURED every moment, every person, in her life...I learned I need to be present and capture the moments...there are many more to come...
I learned that greiving and sadness is all in honor of Emily and it's OK...
I'm going to continue to find what I learned from Emily and use it in my life.
Sedona is a place full of energy...I can't wait to go back...
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Yes, yes, yes... I know about that other dimension. She IS there, as if behind a thin vail of water - almost like we could just reach though and touch them. If you ask, you will feel her comforting you. You know, I mean you really, really KNOW that she is responsible for that soft feeling that wraps itself around you and you can finally exhale and be at peace.
We can't stay in that place forever; we must step back into our lives but her spirit is always there, inside that quietest of places, inside of you. I know about that place.
Sedonna is very healing.
My girlfriend sent this in one of those e-mail chain letters. I did not feel obligated to forward to 12 people in 5 minutes, but the sentiment seemed worth sharing.
St. Theresa's Prayer:
'May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly
where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite
possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.'
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