2 months today...ugh
Seems like a life time...and yet just happened...
Today, Hanna had a volleyball tournament in Grand Junction...has kept us busy...DJ and I took some time today to go for a walk around the soccer field at Central High School. Just happens this field was the field Emily blew her knee on...felt sort of theraputic...felt right to be on a soccer field today...
For me, I've learned to move through each day, talk with people, joke, and listen...but in my quiet time, the pain in my heart, the loneliness in my being is deep and cutting...I miss my daughter, I miss her laughter, I miss her hugs, I miss our late night talks, I miss her being, her spirit, her love, I miss her silly ness, I miss her telling me she doesn't need a job, I'm just a kid and then a chuckle, I miss her rambling, I miss the preparation for some soccer "something". I miss giving her back rubs and arm tickles, I miss the blow dryer. I miss her, Hanna and DJ picking on me. I miss telling her how much I love her and I miss her telling me how much she loves me. I miss everything about her...and I wish so much she was here.
I've started back to work part time...it gives me something to focus on. I'm thankful for my job. (But hoping to win the lotto! haha)
Hanna is going to start part time school and part time homeschooling...I'm not sure Hanna knows what she is feeling...she just needs more time...
DJ is sad...his heart is heavy...time...
Time...according to Albert Einstein..."The only reason for time is so that everyting doesn't happen at once"
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We have been thinking about you guys all weekend. Time does heal...I used to look at Emily's picture on my desk and begin to cry but now I look at her and say...I miss you and wish you could come back.
That is a good quote from Albert E and does make a lot sense.
Let's get together again soon and play some silly game. That's Emily would want us to do. :o)
xxoo
Love to you all,
The Pfaffs
I wish i could say it will get easier, but i don't know that, it might, it might not, but at least know that you can still tell her you love her every day, i know she will hear it, and though you may not know it, or at least hear it anyway, she is telling you she loves you everyday.
I agree with the Pfaffs, that is a good quote, Albert Einstein was really thinking about life when he made that quote.
Hope it gets easier for you.
Happiness to all of you.
Chris Rhodes
I think of your family every day I wish I could give you a breath of wistful sunshine every day
Hey Johnson family-
I just wanted to wish you a happy new year and hope as time goes on the heavy heart lessens over time, but never forgetting the wonderful times with Emily. Emily's picture is carried with me everyday and in my car when drive. She is missed deeply but I know her spirit will live on forever and always. Thinking of you always
Cydney
Sheryl, DJ, Hanna and Emily in Heaven: Greg, Robert, Kyle and I have had you in our thoughts every day. We think of you in the songs we hear, the pictures we see, the memories we have. We send our love to you! Thoughts of Emily when watching Donovan McNabb playing football,Kyle and I listening to a song that was played at Emily's service, thinking of California and the good times we had there so many years ago at the Oakwoods. How everyone has grown since then. I remember with great fondness the last time I say Emily and Hanna during the Coal Ridge/Basalt boys' soccer game. I'm so thankful for that time with the girls. It was so evident to me that day what fine women they had become. As has been said many times before, Emily truly made everyone feel that they were her best friend! We wish you peace in the memories and want you to know we're always there if you need us! We miss you, Emily! Love you.
I have been thinking of Em a lot with the upcoming Season and hope that the girls feel her presence and support from Heaven above. I think of you everyday and how you are doing. I feel I can stay in touch with your blogs and glad that you put the Video on since I was unable to attend the memorial. Time will heal and just keep hugging each other everyday! I hope to see you at the games.
In my prayers,
Kathy
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