As 2009 starts creeping in I think about about how my life has changed...where is my life headed...will I ever be happy again? I don't know???
We spent Christmas in New England with my family, Kevin's family (Jenn's husband) and Gary's mom (Kim's husband). It was so nice to be with everyone. We had so much food and drink. We enjoyed being with each other. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful, loving, caring family. Jake learned to play "Tears in Heaven" by Eric Clapton and got out his guitar and played. Corey picked up his guitar and before you know it we were hanging by the fireplace, they were playing music and we were singing...it was fun! One of those happy moments...building some new memories...
My family got Hanna a new puppy, her name is Tarp!!! She is adorable...Hanna loves her (me too)...but ohhh...puppies are so much work...I had forgotten. My mom and dad gave her a great beginning. She has adapted to so much change in the last couple weeks and is doing just fine (except, she is still on Eastern time. lol).
I got to see some friends...I too am blessed with many friends who surround me with their love and warmth...
Leaving Silt was hard...returning even harder... I find myself very sad today...I miss Emily soooo much. 2008 wasn't so good...and I can't imagine 2009 will be to good either...When someone you love dies, people do their best to comfort you. Time doesn't seem to lessen the pain. I feel like my pain is continuing to creep in, my numbness has lessened. One thing is true, life, as you live it, goes on...
...tonight I saw the crescent moon with a bright star below as I sat in my chair and looked out the window...I thought as I was taking in the beauty...if Emily was here she would have looked, stopped, thought, laughed and commented with some wild story..and walked away leaving me smiling, thinking how lucky I am you are a part of my life...
2009 here we come...
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2009 is going to be a challenging year for everyone who knew and loved Emily. Recently, I talked with someone about how it is hard to do anything without be reminded of her in some way. I am just thankful for all the memories that we do have so that we will never forget her! Someone so special should never be forgotten. Our daily challenge is that the memories will bring more smiles and less tears. We will continue to be there through your pain and laughter. I can't wait to meet Hanna's new puppy! Tarp will definitely bring some new laughs into your home!
Sheryl, you are THE strongest most courageous person I have met in my life. (the things you learn after 45 years of knowing someone). I believe 2009 will be filled with many emotions for you, Hanna and DJ, but you will learn more this year than ever before - about yourself and about life. For what it is worth, I can not believe how much my life has changed since we lost Emily. But in my heart (like I have never known anything before)I know you will make something of all of this. You will make sense of it for all of us. Emily and Hanna will be your inspiration and we will all continue to learn from you. I love you with all my heart and I am here for whatever you need. You are my sister, you are MY hero. Kim
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