One month ago, Emily left me...I miss her sooooo much.
I was laying in bed this morning and thinking about when she was a baby and how mothers always said oh, my baby is 4.3 weeks old and how I never could remember that kind of stuff...I went by the month or the almost a year method, and before I started to cry, I chuckled at myself.
I believe that Emily has surrounded our family with a warm blanket for the winter, allowing us to slowly thaw and feel a little at a time...in hopes that we will make it to the other side healthy and strong.
I feel like I've lost my connection to the whole wide world...it's funny...I truly do live through my kids...Emily kept me connected to people, to the kids, to the school, to their world...I felt like I knew what was going in so many lives.
I worry about Hanna growing up without Emily...who will she have to confide in and talk to about important decisions throughout life? Besides me of course...hehe...ya right...whatever...
I miss the excitement Emily brought to our home...she made us laugh...she was creative, the new t-shirts she made weekly, the ideas on saving/changing the world, the daily love she showed to us. Emily talked constantly, about everything and anything, We could be in the middle of a conversation or listening to a show and if Em had something to say...to her, nothing else mattered, she was going to tell us about what was on her mind right then. She took over our bathroom, and every morning at 6:50 that blow dryer started and oh man, how many times I thought to myself, I can't wait to have my bathroom back...ha...if only's...
Daily, I feel the desperation of her leaving my life...it's a feeling that overwhelmes my entire being and I don't know what to do with those feelings...and then I remember the fun and love and life that Emily lived every day and the memories that we made...and she brings a smile to my face...and I push forward....
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I came here today because I miss Em & my heart is trying to grasp what you all must be going through. I didn't imagine there would be a new entry today... And I in no way imagined it has already been a month... I love that you never kept track of technical stuff abt your babies. Sounds like me haha! But obviously you gave them the most important things for them to be so happy & full of life.They could not bloom to their fullest potential if you did not love & nuture them completely. Life is beautiful that way ... When you give love & nuture them, they give you back more than you ever dreamed possible<3 And now, with Em not bound by the limitations of this Earth, I believe she will keep on giving to you & DJ & Hanna in even more amazing ways... I love the picture you gave of her "blanket" of warmth over all of you. My prayers will be with you more than ever today <3 love u 4evr, Carrie L
Sheryl,
I wish I could say or do something that would take away the pain in those tough times, but I can't. I can only hope that those tough times get easier and further apart. There is not a moment in the day that I don't think of you guys! I love you so much....
Love,
T
Your pain and sense of loss is a testimony to the strong love you had for Emily. If you didn't love her so much, the loss wouldn't be so intense. Focus on the love...Paul Howley
No words I have can come close to comfort....only time will help to heal your broken heart.
Thinking of you in every step of my daily life...
Hope to see you when you are in Mass.
Stay close to one another,
Love,
~Teresa Coyle Airey
Sheryl,
You are an incredible writer and I loved it when you wrote: "I believe that Emily has surrounded our family with a warm blanket for the winter, allowing us to slowly thaw and feel a little at a time...in hopes that we will make it to the other side healthy and strong." I think to myself....Sheryl ought to write a book!
I find myself checking this blog several times a day to read more….NOW that’s a good book!
Hanna and DJ are so fortunate to have you in their life...and I'm lucky too to be your friend.
Love to all of you,
Diane
I keep picturing Emily's beautiful smile and I move from tears to joy and back again. Remember the time that Gary was watching Keith and Em while you and I were out. To keep them busy Gary had them "dancing for a pickle" . The more they danced the more pickles they could eat. Em danced so much she threw up. She wasn't dancing for the pickle she was dancing because she found joy in making everyone laugh. My memories of Emily will forever fill my heart with joy. I love you guys more than words can say.
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Kim
Hi Sheryl,
I am not quite sure what to say. I don't know your family very well, but my son Jordan was one of Emilys many friends. I want you to know that Emily is a great role model for all. Also, I agree with your friend Diane. I think that you should write a book. The reason I say this is, I find myself logging in everyday. I like to read about the person that Emily was. I now use her as an example of how to live my life. Second, I love to read your words. You are an inspiration to me. Like your daughter, you are a great lady. Last, I love to read the wonderful memories from Emilys many friends. If all of this could somehow be compiled into a book, it would be beautiful. We could keep it close to us everyday, no matter where we were. Stay strong. You and your family are amazing.
Dear Sheryl,
I am behind you all the way, and if you ever need help, i am here to help you. I am making a website, it is partially done right now, but i have it up, it is for Emily.
http://chrisrhodes.webs.com/
I hope you like it.
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